Breathe Without Fear of Regret

so i’m not used to this, this whole liking someone having great chemistry and being friends for so long, but not putting a title onto it, from my over analytical standpoint, when his best friend was talking about a girl he was seeing that he said he’d never make his girlfriend, but rather his future wife, thats when i turn to him and say hey why don’t we do that, jus then he replies what do you think i’ve been doing? So i’m left to assume that from my understanding, is that we’ll never be an item because he wants to keep me?

other than that he has tendencies of being too hot and too cold, sometimes i feel like i’m not good enough for him, and then he sleeps over and pulls me into him when we sleep in the same bed, and even kisses me now when we wake up, something he never used to do.

its confusing cause i feel like my emotions lately show much more then before, see i’m not jealous of other girls, i’m a little insecure about his ex, and then i turn into the over analytical girl who’s always trying to understand the hidden meaning in things he says, and its ever so confusing but refreshing and thrilling, maybe i like chasing him, but i jus wish i didnt feel the need too sometimes… i guess i jus wish i wasnt so shy to jus tell him “hey i’m in no rush to be with you, but i wanna show you what you mean to me when we’re together”. maybe i should jus get some sleep

fuck you heart, fuck you Willis, fuck you Period, Fuck You too Brain.

kay so i did an experiment with my munchies last week, i gave myself 2 fat days where all i did was hang with my friends and eat junk food… high in sodium and sugars cause i wanted to see if i’d gain anything and how easy it was and boom wouldn’t you know it i gained 5lbs back and became 130lbs i was in shockk, so i worked double time only eating things with no sugars or only natural sugars like fruit, i kept eating bread but only cause it helps to have it as a burner when i’m working out, eating bread and not working out is a no no… you’re asking for the pounds to add on.

i’m back at 125lbs now so since i discovered food has a lot to do with how much you gain and can loose “DUH” , i’ve decided to make food diary, their great and work well if you plan out your meals ahead! Most girls use them to count calories, but thats not the point of a food diary i’m trying to prove here, planning out your meals around daily activities since that way your eating and burning all around the same time, which leads on a side note fun fact! Acne is caused by a bad digestive system, if you’re eating right, drinking water and pooping erryday, not only will your body look good your skin and hair will too! back on the diary tho.

Your gonna wanna plan what to eat around what your doing that day, if your say working with kids, eat protein like 1 scrambled egg and an english muffin with butter or cream cheese, wash down with water or orange juice; it won’t fill you up, but thats the point, next when you’re feeling a little peckish jus before lunch try a snack like a whole fruit like banana, apple or an orange even granola bars are okay jus read how much sugars in it and quench it with a shit load of water.

lunch keep it light, sandwiches are great but remember if you’re not gonna burn the fat from it right away try a fruit salad, regular salad, letups wraps, fresh grilled chicken or tuna wraps- pita bread is great for you it’s low on fat and has plenty of fibre in it. also another fun fact tip, chew your food, like CHEW IT FULLY, and wash it down with water helps digest it faster and is makes the food less resilient to turning into fat because its being digested better and faster.

stay away from pop, if you really want carbonated drinks, by tonic water or soda water - (look at the sodium content) squeeze a lemon or lime, and add 1 sweetener in it, or use crystal light in it and BOOM healthy carbonated water drink!

before dinner have another small snack, and if your like me and your family only knows how to make BIG dinners, ask for everything on your plate to be the size of 2 table spoons they won’t be mad jus happy you’re actually eating. Like mashed potatoes, beef, rice, chicken, spaghetti, less  is more and everything on your plate should make you feel full, not bloated! you need to be pleasantly full, and since you wont be eating 4 hours before you go to sleep might as well do a small running on the spot work out 2, 1/2 hours after dinner.

then sleep like a baby, wake up, take a morning poop if you didn’t have one the night before or did but theirs more left over lol and do it all over again. Remember to plan foods based around your activities, eating and not at least walking up and down a flight of stairs 4 times fast, will show on scale, so eat everything you like eating in smaller portions  and do shit and you wont gain weight, you’ll instead train your metabolism to speed up cause its getting food all day and burning it all day

*** and say you work in an office all day stick to 1 thing instead of combos, morning you had a say bacon and a slice of bread perff least you got some proteine and fibre in, now drink water all day and eat snacks, NO CHIPS cause its a finger food, you always over eat with chips, try wheat thins, or those 100 calorie cookie bags, again drink lots of water, it takes 2 sugar molecules to stick to 1 water molecule so over run sugar with shit loads of water always. and at the end of the night do some ab workouts, even at your desk at work clench and tighten your abs and sit straight, improving your posture and toning your abs at the same time!

Remember you don’t have to have a strict work out to lose weight, it helps shed it a little faster, but daily activities help really well and thats how i went from 175lbs at age 14 to 125lbs now at age 20, took a while with no working out, and hey if your 16 and a big girl… jus dont think to yourself your still growing, think thin, cause theirs still time to get small, your still growing smaller<3 

i hope these tips helped!!!